A not very timely note

This was a blog I once wrote during my high school and early college years. I keep it around for nostalgic purposes, but it is quite obviously no longer updated. I am looking to make a more professional blog presence in the future, but I still like to look at where I was mentally at certain points in time.

- G. Jan 2013

Sunday, November 23, 2008

"Lost" by G.

It's a feeling that comes often now. It seems like everyone is so sure of what they want to do in life, and then here's me without a concrete plan. Is this wrong? Not wrong, but it could be problematic. It's nice to know that your feet have a solid path to walk on in life. But with that set path, that routine, there isn't much novelty or newness. I want stability as much as the next person, but I don't want my life to just be average. Two sides are always in this constant clash. The rational side, who wants peace and security, and the dreamer side, who wants excitement, discovery, even a little surprise.

We all feel lost once in awhile. We'll sit down and just lounge in our mind's fog, wondering what will happen next. We might even go through our past for a little bit, relieving old times and good memories. But it all comes back to that same point. Uncertainty. And we are always a tiny bit afraid of the unknown. But if we don't try to delve into the unknown at some point, we will never discover what potential treasures lie in wait there.

So we can't stay lost forever. Eventually our compass starts pointing us in a certain direction. We decide to take some course of action, and our lost-feeling-induced siesta is finally put to a calm end. There is nothing wrong with being lost once in awhile. As long as you eventually think things through and continue moving onward. We are going to lose our way often as we go through life; it is our ability to pull out the maps and chart a new course that determines what fate we receive.


Da Old Man said...

The problem with plotting a course is that fate plays too strong a hand at times.
It is good to have a plan, but often, it has to be changed. Many are not able to handle that.

G. said...

Yep, because plotting that new course requires change, something that everyone, including myself, is never that comfortable with. But I definitely get what you mean; plans never work out as nicely as they do on paper, and we have to be prepared for whatever life throws at us... easier said than done.

Atlas said...

I've felt lost many times. And maybe I still do. I agree with you 100%, though -- a set path removes the anticipation of anything new. Life's like a story: if you know what happens next, it just gets boring.

Then again, plans bring a sense of security, or confidence (I guess). But like Da Old Man said, plans change, so it doesn't really matter, anyway. ;)