A not very timely note

This was a blog I once wrote during my high school and early college years. I keep it around for nostalgic purposes, but it is quite obviously no longer updated. I am looking to make a more professional blog presence in the future, but I still like to look at where I was mentally at certain points in time.

- G. Jan 2013

Thursday, September 3, 2009

"The Greatest Fear"

Fear is scientifically defined as a chemical based response to a threat. When you think of fear, the classics appear; monsters, spiders, the dark, heights. Then there are fears that you can feel, but can never really detect. They go beyond the physical; they exist only in your mind's eye. Our dreams and life's reality are in a constant state of change. This inner conflict is invisible; a slow paced chess game. But you know, part of the problem that comes with over thinking is that you tend to go over every possible scenario, regardless of it's logic. My greatest fear? That I won't even begin to uncover the question of why I'm here. That I could quite possibly be nothing but an anomaly of nature with no real purpose. Little questions like these that continue to gnaw on my soul far after I stopped sleeping with a nightlight. How can a question be a fear? It's not the question itself, it's the process of attempting to answer them with the limited time and resources we have. Then again, only a person with manic neurons in his head like myself would think so much about this that I would go to this conclusion. Anyway, what do you think your greatest fear is, and are fears like the ones I stated just a result of over thinking, or are they valid?


zorlone said...

Being an anomaly of nature is where the X-men came from, right? That would have been an interesting twist to this fear. Yet, people fear different. They don't like change. Of all the things consistent in life, that would have been it. The evolution of the gene - advancement.

Okay, my greatest fear would be invisibility. We crave for contact, to reach out. I don't want to be absent in the eyes of my friends, my readers, or anyone.


zorlone said...


Maybe not my greatest fear. Just one of them. he he he

Ci-Sun said...

My fear of rejection and not being perfect has stopped me in my tracks with many clients. People I deem better than me or what have you..
I am slowly starting to realize that with each "rejection" I am still standing.. I am okay...